I had my staffing today. It was so difficult to sit there and admit to the problems I’ve been having and think on the spot of ways to help me salve these issues. I’ve been forming an addiction to downers an hard alcohol. I feel sad and embarrassed and i am out of control which makes me want to completely stop eating. i want to lose weight so bad and its a daily fight not to do so. i don’t want make in inpatient treatment ever again but idk if i can stop this spiraling cycle! God save my soul from my own destruction!